Bankruptcy

Day 22
It is early in the morning, I have only begun to sip my coffee, and so remembering yesterday's practice is rather difficult at the moment.  I know I did practice.  My horn was still on my bed when I got home late last night, in optimistic hopes that I'd be back earlier to get some more playing done.  And I saw what music was on my stand, saw my mute on the ground, and vaguely recalled that it was probably a new music-oriented practice session, which can be tough after a day of teaching, which yesterday was.

I haven't figured out why exactly, but my lips are always exhausted after teaching, even when I don't bring my horn into school.  I just sound super fuzzy and unclear, like I'd had a heavy 6+ hour the day before.  Is it that I'm dehydrated?  That I talk too much and dry out my lips?  That my brain cannot fathom the idea of accomplishing things in two separate arenas on the same afternoon?  Or is it perhaps all in my head?  I try not to get too down on myself about it, because I love to teach and would never stop doing it simply because I can't practice excerpts that day.  But it does make me hope/wonder/optimistically dream about a future time when teaching doesn't entirely bankrupt me and make me pass out on my bed next to my horn, dreaming of our next productive practice adventure...